My life – a roller coaster experience.
Why did I choose this particular title? You may ask. This is how I am feeling about my life and I will try to make you understand why I gave this title. I had an uneventful life up until I turned twelve and my mother announced to me that she did not or ever would love me and that I was a mistake. This, as you might imagine, made me extremely depressed and subsequently started my life in depression with its up and down experiences. At the age of 21, I got secretly married to my first husband, BE. This marriage lasted four years and ended with him trying to take my life and an abortion that left me scarred for life internally. Consequently, I could not have any children. With my mother’s statement, I became very depressed with very dark thoughts, and I made attempts on my life. I could not react to anything, be it bad or good. This is a very real disease of mental illness. Through some periods of my life I suffered with not being able to move.
My life also consisted of forty years of drug abuse. My fifth marriage produced heroin and cocaine addiction. This disease sadly also will last the rest of my life.
I found out about Project Live during the times of intense depression. My life was completely unmanageable and had it not been for the discovery of Project Live, my addiction or depression would have taken me out of here. My experience with Project Live is a very useful and helpful one. After having a relationship with them, I have not had a suicidal event or a drug problem. I have not had a hospital admission since 8 years.
I want to express my love and adoration for the program, and especially two case managers, Naema and Christine, two caring individuals that I can say go up and beyond the level of compassion,
Thank you Project Live.